I’m having a hard time right now and just needed to vent. Tyler was such an amazing support this weekend and did a great job at being so vocal at how proud of me he was for how I did in the Mini Marathon yesterday. More than that, he fit right in with my friend Jaimie and we’ve all had a blast all weekend laughing, watching tv and lounging around.

As great as all of that was, all I can focus on right now is that he left to go back home so he can be at church-band practice and then church. I have to be at work in the Indy office for a couple more days, so I won’t be able to go back home until the middle of this week. It’s so difficult after being married nearly three years to be apart like this. I know I’m being a big baby, but I just feel like a part of me is missing when he’s not around. It was all I could do to not pack up my stuff and go home with him…

Excuse me while I go cry a little…

Me and TylerThumbs up

In the next few months, I’m probably going to wear myself out, but I’ll have a blast doing it. I have so many fun things coming up in the near future that I just have to blog about it…because, you know, that’s what I do.

Yesterday, I got my first client for photography. Granted, it’s not a paying client because I’m not ready to charge for my work just yet, but it’s a client nonetheless. A co-worker’s son is graduating and because they haven’t gotten any senior pictures yet, they are running out of time. She only needs a head shot, but I’ve talked her into doing an entire session as well as some family shots so she can give them as Mother’s Day gifts. I’m very excited about just getting out to practice using my camera and finding creative shots.

I got the okay yesterday to work in Indy the couple days before the 500 Festival Mini Marathon. This is so great for me because I don’t have to stress about leaving work the day before the Mini and fighting the traffic (there will be 35,000 runners in this race) to get there on time, get settled in, get dinner, and get to bed early. I’m planning on staying the weekend with my college friend Jaimie, who has been the one who has encouraged me to take on this beast of a race. I’m so excited she did, because I think this is going to be a really fun race. And to top that off, we get tickets into opening day at the Indy 500. How cool is that? I’ve never been to the race track; I’ve only driven by it, so I think this should be a blast! I can’t wait! My training is going fabulously. Last week I only ran 25 miles opposed to the 30 I had planned, but they were some really great runs (even the 10-miler I did on the treadmill). I got in 5 last night and am hoping to do another 5 tonight. This is the best I’ve trained for a race, so I’m hopeful about the outcome.

After that, the biggie is the Hawaii trip. After the whole fiasco with ATA, I was a little worried that we wouldn’t be going after all (one of the guys I work with was on his way to Hawaii on ATA, but made it to Phoenix where he was stranded in the airport after ATA decided to cancel all their flights), but so far, our airline is still in business. I’m praying that it stays that way, too. It’s going to be the trip of a lifetime with some really great people (we’re going with our friends BJ and Rachel). While we’re there, we’re going horseback riding into a dormant volcano, snorkeling, kayaking, and going on a helicopter ride. Of course, we’ll get plenty of beach time, too.

I’m in the home stretch of my photography classes, too. I’m looking forward to being done. I haven’t learned as much as I would like and having class every week twice a week really eats up a lot of my time. I’m nearly finished with one of the two final projects in my Photoshop class and working on my mini portfolio in Basic Photography. I am really excited about my Mini Portfolio, but after being rejected when I asked to take pictures at a family’s home this weekend, I’m a little worried that it might be more difficult than I had planned. My theme is “Aged,” so I’m trying to get shots of anything that looks old and weathered.

On a totally different note, I’m so excited about this fabulous weather! Today is going to be in the 60s, tomorrow in the 70s. Get out and enjoy it…I know I am!

 

I was bad this weekend…I didn’t get a single run in. I was just so exhausted all weekend that even the thought of going on a run made me tired. I was aiming to get a 9-miler in at some point to keep on schedule with my half marathon training, but that certainly didn’t happen. And to make matters worse, I ate a bunch of junk that I shouldn’t have…pizza, Easter candy, banana bread, and powdered donuts. I’m not proud of it, and I certainly can’t continue on this pattern. I’m make a small goal for this week…I want to work out every week day, even if it is just a short run or some crunches and push ups at night. If I think in small terms, maybe I won’t be discouraged like I was at the thought of running for an hour and a half this weekend.

On the positive side, I did get a lot accomplished this weekend. I went to our church’s scrapbooking event and got about five pages completed. I haven’t touched my scrapbooking since the last retreat, which was a few months ago. I colored my hair, which didn’t turn out like I wanted…it was much more of a reddish tint than I thought it would be. I’m planning to re-color sometime tomorrow since that will be the 48 hours I need to wait between colorings. I also completed all of the things we need to send in our taxes, which I’ll be doing tomorrow. And I even painted my nails tonight. They’re now a pastel pink, in honor of spring. Which, by the way, has not come in full force like I’d like for it to. I’m ready for weather in the 60s with no rain. I’m so tired of this dismal rainy weather, and it’s really starting to bring down my normally happy demeanor.

This weekend was way too short, and I’m sad to have to go back to work tomorrow. The only thing that makes me excited for it is the fact that the UPS guy will be delivering my new toy, the Canon 40D with the 50 mm lens, f/1.4. Otherwise, it will be a sad day…I have to get my allergy shots and I have to go to my fundamentals of imaging class. Don’t get me wrong, I’m learning a lot, but it’s amazing what two extra free days during the week can do to your schedule. I’m ready for classes to be overwith so I can start putting what I’ve learned into action and booking some clients.

I accomplished quite a bit this weekend. I always hate to see the weekend go, but it doesn’t hurt as much when you get a lot done.

Saturday started out with going to get my driver’s license renewed. Long story short, I’d been driving on an expired license since my birthday in October and didn’t realize it until Friday night. I was in and out of the BMV in 20 minutes.  Then I went to pick up our Angel Food order and get the oil changed in Tyler’s car. The rest of the day was spent working on dishes and taking a nap since it was rainy out. I was so excited that I woke up to sunshine, so I put on my running gear and went on a 7+ mile run (unfortunately, I don’t have all those fancy schmancy gadgets that tell me my distance, so I’ll have to drive it to see). It was a FANTABULOUS run! I made it back in about an hour and 5 minutes, which is pretty good. Afterward, I cooked dinner and we had a friend over and watched Saw.

Sunday was a good day, too. I got up early and did dishes from dinner the previous night before I headed to church. Afterward, we went shopping for food to grill since it was such a beautiful day out. BJ and Rachel were to come over and have lunch and finish up our HAWAII plans! We got everything ironed out, and figured out our main activities: horseback ride through Haleakala crater on Maui, and on Oahu we’re going on a 45-minute helicopter ride and snorkel/kayak trip. Of course, we’ll also tour the Dole plantation and spend plenty of time on the beach. We also finalized our car rentals on both islands. It feels good to get it all done, but not to pay for it. Nonetheless, we’re beyond excited and can’t wait for May to get here!

I always feel so reluctant to come back to work. Where do the weekends go? Luckily, I had a jury to get ready today, so that motivated me a bit more than a usual Monday morning.

EDIT TO ADD: Thanks to Tiffany’s suggestion, I now know that I ran 7.46 miles yesterday. Whoo hoo!

For the past week, I’ve been sick. It started out with a sore throat last Friday, and then throughout the weekend it progressed to achy muscles, watery eyes, sneezing, coughing. All the fun stuff. I thought that I would be able to shake it after a couple days — most times I do — but not this time. I went to work feeling pretty good on Monday, then Tuesday I woke up feeling horrible. I couldn’t drag myself out of bed if I wanted to. So I called in sick, which I hate to do.

I’ve tried getting in bed early as often as possible this week, but it still hasn’t helped. In fact, the more sleep I get, the worse I usually feel. Not cool. So I broke down today and called the doctor. Her nurse said they’ve had so many patients with the symptoms I described that they wouldn’t be able to fit them all in the waiting room. So instead, my doctor just prescribed me a Z-pack. I’m looking forward to not feeling run down all day after just a day at work.

Speaking of running, I’ve done absolutely none lately. I know I’ve been sick and my body probably needed the rest, but I’m DYING to get back at it. I even bought a reflective vest a couple weeks ago so I can run in the morning and evening and I’ve only gotten to use it once. I can just feel myself putting on the weight and becoming more and more unconditioned. I just want to be healthy again and not feel guilty when I eat what I want to (after all, that’s half the reason I run anyway). Really wanting to do my best at the Indy Mini Marathon in May, and I would love to get a jump start on the training.

Well, I survived the Evansville Half Marathon this year. I guess just being able to say that after the record-setting heat we had is a feat in itself. Although there were about 1,900 people registed for the event, only 1,626 runners finished. To say it was hot on race day would be an understatement. It was at least 75 degrees with high humidity at the start.

But let me start with what happened very first thing in the morning. I woke up promptly at 5:30 Sunday morning to prepare for the race. I had two-and-a-half pieces of cinnamon-sugar toast and a glass of orange juice for breakfast first thing since I wanted to make sure I had time to digest it. Normally, I would never eat before a race because it usually makes me sick. But I wanted to make sure I had plenty of energy to make it through the race. I also started drinking a combination of water and Gatorade so I was sure I would be hydrated; I’d been drinking water all week long and felt pretty confident about having enough fluids in me. Then I got dressed and fixed my hair and gathered everything I would need for the race. Tyler, mom, and dad (who got in the night before) got up and started getting ready so I waited for them and we left right on schedule at 6:45.

Surprisingly, I was very calm on the way to Reitz Hill for the start. I only got a little razzled when Tyler and my dad were cracking jokes about how I would end up regretting not packing an overnight bag for when I ended up in the hospital (hello, positive thoughts please!) but other than that, I was cool, calm and collected. Really, it was uncharacteristic of me because I usually freak out about anything I can’t control.

When we finally arrived at Reitz Hill, I got out and attached my number to my shorts and took off to warm up. I got back and stretched and then looked around for my parents and Tyler. Nowhere in sight. But I did see my friend Miles and I gave him a big hug (his dad was running the race). I couldn’t find a water station, and I had to eat one of my Gu packets which you’re supposed to take with water. I ate it anyway, thinking I could find Tyler so I could get into the car to get my water bottle. Made my final trip to the restroom and rubbed on some of the Aquaphor to my thighs. I also saw some of the people from church who had made signs to support me along the route. I felt bad that I couldn’t stay and talk to them long, but the runners had already been lined up for a while. As I made my way to the 8:00-minute pace mark, I found my mom who gave me the other Gu to replace the one I had eaten. I settled in next to my running friend Chuck and waited for the start. It was already so hot, and I knew it was going to be a tough race especially since I didn’t drink anything right before the race. I’ve never done well in heat for some reason. My body just doesn’t adapt.

Once the gun went off, we all had a slow start. We wound our way around the back of Reitz and I waved to my mom, dad and Tyler, knowing I’d see them in about 4 miles. The first part of the race was downhill, so I tried to lengthen my stride, but not overly so because I knew the dangers of going too fast at the start. It wasn’t too bad; I wasn’t going as fast as I could have, but not too slow either. But man, I was hot. The sun was shining and there was very little relief from it along the route. I was already getting chills, which I knew wasn’t a good sign, but I kept up the pace.

By the time I neared the McDonald’s at St. Joe, I heard some familiar voices call my name. I looked to the left and saw some more church members/friends: Rachel, Bill, and Cathy. That made me feel good, and I waved to them as I passed. Up ahead I could see my family. I motioned to my mom that I needed my water, but she had left it in the car (And there is a funny story that goes with this…apparently my mom panicked a bit and said a four-letter word that my dad and Tyler teased her about. Very unlike my mom, so like my husband and dad.) so Tyler let me have a sip of the Powerade he had just gotten from McDonald’s. I began to worry that even though I drank a bunch of water all week that it still wasn’t enough.

By the time I got to Garvin Park and Bosse Field, I was parched and getting tired. And that was only mile 6. I again saw Rachel, Bill and Cathy (I remember saying to them, “You guys are everywhere!”) and then once I made it through Bosse Field, my mom was waiting for me with some water. I made sure I drank plenty and walked some to give myself a little break.

Then it was onto Main Street, where I saw both trios as well as Matt, another church member. Matt asked how I felt and I managed to get out, “Not good at all.” I told my mom, dad and Tyler that I no longer cared about my 1:55 goal and I just wanted to finish. Although I had planned only to walk at the water stations, it was obvious I was going to be doing a lot more of it. And as I went under the Lloyd Expressway from Main to Vine Street, I had to walk. From then on out, I think I walked after every mile marker and then some.

Once I got back on Main Street at the walkway downtown, I seriously contemplated calling it a day. I saw my mother in law for the first time and also saw Miles again. My family was there, too, I knew the car would be nearby; I could easily just walk off the course and make my way home. But for some reason, I kept with it. My mom poured some water on me, and even though the coolness was a shock to my body, I knew I needed to cool off. About a mile past the walkway, Chuck started to make his way past me. His goal was to finish within two hours (he had run it in 1:51 last year but got injured from his marathon training) so I knew that I had really gone off my goal pace of 8:30 per mile. As much as I wanted to keep up with him, I couldn’t.

As we neared Akin Park, I could feel myself getting more and more fatigued. From that point on, the half marathon always feels like it stretches on forever. It felt that way last year, too. I remember that near mile 11 there were several people either on the side of the road with the First Aid personnel or lying in the middle of the road with First Aid personnel. I felt very fortunate that I wasn’t one of them, but knew that if I went too hard it would be me. And I didn’t want that. So even though my mind wanted me to go harder, my body wouldn’t have it. And I had to push aside my pride and just do what I could to finish.

I finally saw the end in sight as I neared the riverfront. This is where I had problems last year, so I knew that I had to pay attention to my body. Anything could still happen so I didn’t want to push it too hard even though I wanted so badly to just finish the race and rest. I could see the blow-up finish line in the distance, but it seemed so far away. And it was. I tried so hard just to keep running, but even that close, I still had to walk. As I finally got closer, I knew I could do it. I tried sprinting the last part as hard as I could, but I’m pretty sure I was only capable of a slow jog.

As I neared the finish line, I heard my family cheering me on above the noise of the crowd. My name was announced and I knew I was going to make it. My time was 2:04:45 and finished 400th overall and 19th in my age group. Not nearly as good as I wanted, but unlike so many that day, I can say I finished. I had a hard time standing up after I got done. I was so disoriented that I almost didn’t turn in my chips; I heard the volunteers saying they needed to get them, but at the time, I didn’t know they were talking to me. I made my way to the table where water, Gatorade, and fruit awaited me. I quickly opened up my Gatorade and drank as much of that as I could. I ate half of a banana and already was so full. People were coming up to talk to me and I know I seemed so rude, but I was having a hard time just keeping my eyes open and staying standing. I determined I will not do the Nashville Marathon and even swore off half marathons all together. About 15 minutes later, though, I was talking about running the half marathon again next year. How quickly I forget the pain. (Side note: Now I’m thinking about doing the Indy Half Marathon. I’ll have to decide soon since it quickly fills up.) I just don’t understand why my body gives out when I train so hard for it. I trained at 8:00-minute miles so I thought keeping up a pace of about 8:30 would be no problem. What am I doing wrong? I’m open to any suggestions.

We walked across the street to get out of the sun. I sat down and stretched, said goodbye to some of my supporters. It was so good to have people there cheering me on. I honestly don’t know if I would have made it without them. I took off my socks to reveal a nasty blister. But on the bright side, the Aquaphor did the job and I didn’t have ANY chafing (last year, it was so bad it scabbed). I was so tired and sore, all I wanted to do was go home and sleep. So I walked — barefoot no less – back to the car with Tyler and my parents so we could go home where a nice, long shower and warm bed awaited me.

Later that afternoon, we had my birthday dinner at my in-laws’ house with my parents. Chicken and steak kabobs, cole slaw, potato salad, baked beans, freshly baked bread, red velvet cake, and ice cream really hit the spot especially in a runner’s empty stomach. I got a lot of nice things from everyone, and Tyler even surprised me with a massage at Absolute Beauty on Monday in addition to the suit he had already bought me. It was very, very relaxing, and although it made me more sore the next day, it was totally worth it.

I apologize to everyone for the late update, but I don’t have Internet at home. Then I only had a half day at work on Tuesday to allow for travel time to Indy. I was in Indy doing training all day on Wednesday (which was my 25th birthday!). I didn’t get on the Internet when I was there either. But I guess it’s better late than never, right?

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